Random update!

Wow,life gets busy. In case anyone reads this, I want to update every once in a while. Things seem to be settling in-ish here. Do they ever really settle?? Am quickly learning that they don't. So I just try to enjoy every moment. Sometimes I am amazed by how content I feel amidst the chaos that is life. My little ones are not really so little anymore and they have entered the cutest of cute phases. If I were 10 years younger and wealthy I would most certainly try to have another. But, alas, I am not and I am beyond grateful for the 2 I have. I still lurk on the infertility blogs. I cant seem to stay away. I guess I feel more connected to the infertile world than the fertile world. I hurt for those who are in the place that I spent so much time in. I am so often amazed by their resilience. I dont remember ever feeling resilient, but perhaps I was. Sometimes I think that just surviving to tell about another day is the definition of resilience, no matter how that day turns out. I guess I dont have much else to add. The kids are doing pretty well. My son turned 3 and can be such a sweet boy. He continues to be quirky and is actually having an EEG at the end of the month to rule out seizures. I do believe he will eventually end up with a diagnosis on the autism spectrum. Time will tell. Baby girl is growing and talks nonstop. She is so cute and sweet and I credit some of my son's progress with her sheer existence. She has really helped him so much. I hope that they both continue to do well. And I hope that they remain the best buddies that they are now!! I am so, so lucky to have them. Knowing this makes raising them a little bit easier in my opinion. Anyway, I hope people stop by once in a while and I hope that the information I have written about is useful to someone at some point. If you still have even a shred of hope left in your heart, please dont give up trying to have a child. I will try to update again soon, probably with more details about my daughter's upcoming surgery to remove the giant hairy nevus from her back:( Am sooooo not looking forward to all that entails. Just google "skin expander toddler" to get an idea. Poor girl... Sidenote- I just realized that it has been almost a YEAR since my last post!!!! Yikes. That went by entirely too fast. WOW.