Good chaos

I have started a million posts and not finished one. I am not really sure why. I am thinking that months of sleep deprivation will do that to a person. I will take my sleep deprivation though. After the events of Friday in Connecticut, I hold my babies even closer (if that is possible). My son was having one of his tantrums yesterday and normally I would get agitated, but I felt guilty for feeling any agitation because I knew that there were many people going to bed without their child who would gladly have taken a tantrum every hour to hold their child again. So unbelievably horrifying. On a lighter note, I just felt like checking in to document where life is at. We moved into our new home and love it! I am sadly trying not to become too attached in case my husband would lose his job in the coming months due to another airline merger. Trying not to think too much about it right now. Will deal with it if/when it happpens. Kids are doing well. Big boy is a hoot! He is a unique little guy with such a big personality. He is starting to really talk a lot. I swear it is because we started him on fish oil. He is regularly using 2-word combiations. As a speech-language pathologist, it is amazing to watch language develop. We have been talking a lot to Big Boy about Santa's upcoming visit. He is fascinated by this chimney thing and listens very carefully. So, tonight at dinner we asked him what he would lieave for Santa when he comes. He thought for a few seconds and then said, "Cookie." We then asked him what he would leave for Santa to drink. Without missing a beat, he responded, "Beer." We were skyping with my parents and they about fell out of their chairs! He does such cute things all the time. It usually makes up for his crying spells... Little girl is doing well, but is doing things a little more slowly than Big boy did. We tried feedig her oatmeal tonight and she wasn't really interested. I think it was partly due to teething, partly due to reflux and possibly related to the surgery she had on her tongue and lip at 4 weeks old :( She also isn't rolling over. She did it at 3 months, but has't done it since. She is also fairly quiet, whereas her big bro was a chatterbox. Amazing to me how different they are. She is very sweet and makes much more eye contact than her brother ever has. She has the bluest eyes, which is strange since mine are brown. Blue eyes are all over the place on my side of the family so maybe that is it. Oh, and she snores like a chainsaw!! The ENT said that it is due to her acid reflux and that she should grow out of it. I sure hope so otherwise she will never get married! Not much else new here. Hoping to get some rest over the holidays. We haven't gone out at all because our regular sitter broke her back in a car accident. Poor girl :( I hope that those of you still struggling with infertility have some peace over the holidays and that the new year brings you everythiing you wish for. I will check in sooner next time for anyone who reads this blog.